Updated: Sep 18
I was an engineered fool "trying to find myself" well into my adulthood - through music, clothes, "being unique", who my friends were, how much truth I could uncover, my job...... I could go on. I looked around and looked at myself and realized I still looked like most everyone else - LOST and searching. The things of this world will consistently disappoint you. But when your true, deep joy does not come from things or people in this world, your joy can never be taken. That doesn't mean every day is easy and you are bouncing from cloud to cloud in bliss. You still FEEL things. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 reminds me it's OK to FEEL. 𝟐 𝐂𝐨𝐫 𝟒:𝟖-𝟗 We are afflicted in every way, but 𝐧𝐨𝐭 crushed; perplexed, but 𝐧𝐨𝐭 driven to despair; persecuted, but 𝐧𝐨𝐭 forsaken; struck down, but 𝐧𝐨𝐭 destroyed. We have to remember that we are blessed, chosen, loved, adopted, redeemed, forgiven, and an accepted saint in Christ. We are marked and sealed with the Holy Spirit. That is how God sees us and that is who we are!
I still am an engineered fool in so many ways; but I fight for my mind every day. It’s an ongoing battle! I fight for clean hands and a pure heart despite my flesh being impatient and cross sometimes. My physical walk still needs so much work. Thankfully, good works are not a condition of entering heaven and being in the presence of the Father. Good works are evidence of His Holy Spirit being inside of you!!
None of us will ever be "good" before a perfect and righteous God. That is exactly why Christ shed His spotless blood for us on Calvary. My flesh will fail until the day it dies. This is why He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. His death, burial, and resurrection sealed my eternity. It may sound crazy, but even in death, there is victory. Anything good in me came from Him, because my flesh is weak and wretched.
Our minds are programmed from birth. I was once blind, but now I see. I did not find myself until I truly found Christ. I had to go through some things to be able to look back and see His hand throughout my whole life! Even when I didn't ask for it or even know it was there!
It wasn't when I said a prayer at 13 years old. That was the stepping stone. It's been an ongoing journey! I didn't truly find Christ until my 30's; I did this by seeking His face, His Word, and His peace that surpassed all understanding no matter what is going on around me. I pray when I'm held to the fire...truly held to the fire, I will have faith and be able to withstand it.
I pray that my heart that's been hardened by this world will continue to soften so that I can have more love for others. After all, that is the greatest commandment - to love God and love others! By doing this, it's fulfilling the whole of the law!
Being a critical thinker and being empathetic are two traits I've always had. Growing in Christ has shown me that this is a deeply rooted spiritual gift that God has given me.
CHOSEN BY GOD!
How do you know that you are chosen by God?
Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ. That is how you know if you are chosen by God! There is simplicity to all of this. Man tends to complicate it with religion.
I am bound by zero religion as set forth by men. No labels nor titles identify my thoughts or mind. I am un-tethered to the systems of thought regulation that is modern churchianity.
God's Holy Spirit lives inside of me. I am the temple that the enemy seeks to take his seat in as the Scripture states.
"Do you not know that you are 𝗚𝗼𝗱’𝘀 𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲 and that God’s Spirit dwells in you?"
"Let no one deceive you in any way. For that day will not come, unless the rebellion comes first, and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the son of destruction, who opposes and exalts himself against every so-called god or object of worship, so that he takes his seat 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗚𝗼𝗱, proclaiming himself to be God.
All this being said, y'all bear with me on this journey. Because I will still screw up and get things wrong. And this testimony can and will change; my life is in His hands. I tried to keep this short because I know if it’s too long no one will read it! Ha! The only ‘sheep’ I will ever be is His. Psalm 100:3 Know ye that the Lord he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.
If you are a child of God and things just don't seem right and you feel like you don't belong, it's because we are not of this world! It's not ours "to fix". But we do have to be wise as serpents and gentle as doves while we're here. "Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices." 2 Corinthians 2:11 That is just what I'm doing as the Lord leads. Helping others be wise as the serpent, gentle as a dove, and NOT ignorant of the enemy's devices!
Tools in the link below to have a relationship with Christ (not get religious!!) 📖🛡⚔ How to Become a Christian/Follower of Christ/Not religious! -Christina